feel like ppl are getting meaner and it’s weird to see
how do you mean
bro forget this post for a second - i opened this app today at 9am and the first post i saw was you reblogging some horny shit about “sliding in and stretching her real good”. 9am on a wednesday. what was that all about?
im always like hehe im so smart i will avoid shame by never doing anything ever but then i feel ashamed of not living and it turns out i didn’t escape any sort of discomfort i just traded it in for a less rewarding kind
self love is a process where you reduce the amount of separation you have to experience to be able to look at yourself with compassion
like first you can look at a baby picture. that’s an infant. she is innocent. then you allow yourself to smile when you see yourself in a photo album, at say, age seven. the hard bit is to stop cringing at you, ten years ago. then you might be able to forgive you, five years ago. maybe you can understand then, where you, four years and two months ago, was coming from. sure, you don’t agree with your sixteen-year-old self, but you get it. you start wanting to hug her instead of yell at her. you, nine months ago, was actually doing her best. you from half a year ago was doing all she knew how. you, last month, made a mistake. and she’s sorry, and last week she felt joy and it wasn’t embarrassing. you from five days ago ate lunch on the grass. the you from the mirror this morning is that seven year old child. you are soft and new and it is good that you exist and you can still be soft and new and it is still good that you exist. give your baby photos a kiss
i think everyone needs to adopt “i didnt say it was good, i said i liked it” into their vocabulary right now. it did me wonders
night’s sleep for 12+ hours: i want to lay here forever if i have to leave this place terrible things will happen
night’s sleep for 9 hours: i am a human animal and i will eat a meal and exercise while engaging in social intercourse
night’s sleep for 6 hours: im up im awake im doing stuff I’m good
night’s sleep for 5 hours: the world is fundamentally an evil place
night’s sleep for 4 hours: the world is an uncaring place
night’s sleep for 3 hours: the world is made of a thin film of breakable craftpaper
every time you assume that others are thinking negatively of you or judging you behind your back, you are bullying yourself through them. at the end of the day, you don’t know what thoughts are running through their heads unless they verbally express them to you. until then, every one of ‘their’ opinions about you is nothing more than your fear, and whatever assumption is born from your fear is yours to let go - not theirs to disprove.
U can grieve and still live life. U can miss loving someone and love others. You can hold onto the good moments and simultaneously the bad moments. You can take the learning from a person you let go off and use it for the better. You can love someone and they may not be the right person. You can wish someone the best and love them from a distance. You can think fondly of someone and never talk to them again.. mysteries of the world…
